I'm happy to say that it was none of the above!! (sorry to disappoint anyone).
I can honestly say I was a little nervous about the whole thing because I didn't want this whole sugar free thing to rule my life. I didn't want it to stop me from doing things incase it resulted in me screwing up. I wanted this to fit in with my lifestyle and not me fit into its. There was no way I was going to be the type of person who locks themselves away from the world to succeed but I also didn't want to be that person who says "i'll just start again tomorrow'.
SO I researched.. ALOT.. And to be honest there is fark all out there specifically to help you when planning a night out.
I knew that when ordering my food I had to stick to meats without sauces, fresh vegetables and just hope that the chef wasn't doing a sneaky and adding in any special ingredients.
The place we had dinner at was amazing and the company was even better. There is nothing better than a girls night out, but what tops a girls night out is a "mums" night out! Kid free! Let the good times role!
The menu at the restaurant had quite an extensive range of meals to choose from, pretty much every type of meat you could want. However a lot of them were cooked in a sauce. I decided to start with an entree and went with the scallops cooked in butter on a bed of pureed brocoli and cauliflower. It just melted in my mouth and was such a great start to the evening.. except for the awkwardness when no one else orders a starter and old miss piggy here is chowing down in front of everyone... For my main I decided to go with the tbone rump steak, served with asparagus wrapped in bacon with sweet potato chips and asked them to hold the sauce . IT was DEVINE!!!!! Looking around the table all the meals were so impressive and on all accounts were delicious, but I knew I had made the right choice for someone wanting "sugar free".
I decided to just have water over dinner and save the drinking till the cocktail bar. That way I would be drinking for enjoyment, not drinking to wash down food. And trust me, those that know me, know that I don't need alcohol to have fun, alcohol just brings out my more wilder twin who is banned from family events....
Now dessert was going to be where my willpower was tested. Like I mentioned, I had tried to get a booking to this place 4 times previously and each time they were booked out. I never wanted to go there for the mains, it was just the dessert. Purely the dessert. The first time I went out to dinner with my now sister inlaw and brother, I ordered fried icecream as my starter. I just didn't see the point in filling up on crap and feeling too full to really enjoy my dessert. However the desserts at this place could not be compared to anything I have seen. These were like the Optimus Primes of dessert. So I knew that it was going to be hard BUT.....
It wasn't!!!!!!!! I can't even explain how it felt. When the dessert menu came out I read through it and thought "oh wow they seem amazing" but I didn't feel like I was missing out. (maybe i was full from my gigantic steak but thats never stopped me before). When they did come out and were sitting just centimetres away from my nose, my mouth did not water, not a single part of me wanted to taste them. Yes admire them but not want them. This is the first time in my life this has EVER happened. It was like I could see how delicious they would be, but it had no effect on my brain telling me that I needed them. I could not believe it. I literally meant it when I said, no I don't want a taste. Because every other diet I have been on, I would say no but my brain and stomach would be screaming YESSSSS!!! GO ME!
Now the beverages! Because we hadn't had a catch up for ages (bloody sick babies) we talked and talked and talked. We were the last to leave and the staff were pretty much turning off the lights to give us the hint. We walked up to the cocktail bar and I could not believe it was 11 o'clock! The bar was nearly empty, as most people had moved onto the nightclubs. I watched as the girls ordered cocktails of the day and other fancy coloured drinks that looked good. I was about to order a scotch and diet coke but it just didn't feel right, as I had finally gotten over those bloody softdrink cravings. So I decided to order the no personality drink of Vodka, soda water, lime and lemon. I knew it was going to taste crap but thought I would just scull it down. But surprise number 2 for the night. It tasted beautiful. Like it was just the right amount of sweetness. My tastebuds are obviously changing because the last time I had that same drink I took it back and asked them to put lime cordial in it because I could not make myself drink it.
Its so hard to explain to people how so many things have changed in 22 days without sounding like a wanker or that im full of sh^t. I am so so glad I am doing this. I have had so many people compliment me in the last week saying how I look like I have lost weight, or that my skin is looking really nice or my hair is shiny and its like are you taking the piss out of me??? Then I can see for myself things like my shorts no longer fitting or knowing that after I finish my dinner I'm not looking for something sweet. Things I felt that I "needed" don't even register anymore. I feel good! I feel good knowing that even some of the small changes like swapping out things in the kids lunch boxes is a positive change.
The 6 year old asked for a honey roll cake at the shops today for his lunches. I said we could try and make one thats sugar free but then I thought, this can be his treat. His one thing that breaks the rules. I know that I won't indulge in it. I know I'm strong enough now that I won't feel the need to hide in the cupboard eating it at 1am. Maybe he won't like it as much as he used to, but maybe he will. Maybe that makes me a hypocrite but I think he deserves an indulgence now and then.
Anyhoo, we are off to go for a family bikeride since I'm not hungover as a turd.