I had to do it, I had to taste it. There was no way I could go on living without knowing what it taste like. It was tearing my soul apart hearing everyone talking about it and not being able to have an opinion on something so important. Something that was dividing so many people. So I cracked. It was just a nibble, barely a taste but it was fructose and there was no turning back. Am I sorry? No! Would I do it again, if I had my time over? Yes!!
I just had to taste Cadburys new VEGEMITE chocolate!! How could I not!?! How could I call myself an Australian when I hadn't even tasted this new concoction. It was only a tiny nibble BUT that one piece of chocolate was worth it. I too can now say I ate vegemite in chocolate form and LOVED it! I'm no longer going to be sitting in a group of people discussing if it made them vomit or made their day and not know the answer!! The best thing about the whole experience, was that I didn't feel the need to devour the whole block (oh you know I would have in the past) Hell I didn't even eat the whole tiny piece. Just enough to taste that vegemite centre and I was done.
For the record it didn't taste anything like vegemite, more like a salted caramel. So kudos to cadbury for such an awesome flavour. Hopefully I won't be deported now for being so un-australian.
I have always said that I am not going to go all sugar martyr during this year long crusade. If the moment hits me or the occasion is so special that it requires it (like tasting limited edition vegemite chocolate) then I will enjoy that moment. It isn't going to be the end of all my hard work and it wont escalate to me going on a bender. At only 7 weeks, I am proud to know 100% that I have changed enough that this isn't just words on a screen that are meaningless and meant to make me sound like i'm in control. Its actually fact and I love that more than I can put into words.
I went to a baby shower on the weekend and the spread of foods were amazing (and they even catered for the sugar free d*ckhead of the group!!) I could happily sit back and admire the love and hard work that went into them, but not once did I want to eat them. My 1 year old on the other hand positioned herself right in front of a plate of something that looked amazing and helped herself a few times over. Call me a bad fructose free mum, but I'm fine with this. We don't go to babyshowers every week and I'm happy to let her enjoy these treats but when we get home, its back to the fructose free version (sucker...) The 6 year old impressed me as usual, with his healthy choices of fruits and sandwiches but that has nothing to do with the journey we are on, that is just his personal taste in foods. Offer him a lolly or a piece of fruit and he will always take the piece of fruit. Offer him a chocolate milk and a piece of fruit and thats a completely different story. Speaking of chocolate milk, I stayed at my parents during the week to get some contact with adults and also a bit of help with the kidlets. The 6 year old has his chocolate milk always waiting for him in the fridge from Pop. For the record, I have been trying to recreate a chocolate milk for him and we are actually onto a couple of winners (I will post links ). I was about to read the content of sugar in this particular milk, however I couldn't get past the name of the milk."Chocolate NATURALLY flavoured milk". Apparently there are cows getting around out there who produce chocolate milk. SCORE!! I don't understand how there could be anything natural about it. Nice marketing though.. "Hmm lets go for the health conscious people who prefer their chocolate milk to occur naturally like in nature"... Theres really only one way they can turn that milk brown naturally and I don't think people would like cow dung floaties in their milk...... just sayin.
On the weekend I had planned to make so many different things in prep for the 6 years old birthday but then something called having a life (baby showers, teddy bears picnics, and WORK) got in the road. I did manage to have a crack at the peanut brittle and it turned out looking nothing like the photo, but it was DELICIOUS!! I also made some fish fingers tonight with sourdough bread crumbs and the kids inhaled them. Personally I don't eat fish. It has something to do with being made to feed our pet cat when I was a child and every time I smell fish, it reminds me of cat food... vomit!
I also made pinwheels, sausage rolls and cheese and bacon scrolls on the weekend but didn't get around to making anything that required skill. However come 3pm Friday and my mind will be FREE from the deadline that has been looming over my head for work. I can't wait to be able to cook and enjoy it, instead of feeling guilty that I should be doing more important things... like the job that pays for the ingredients I cook with....(funny that)
So I apologise for neglecting this blog for the last 2 weeks, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel and its 4 days away!!
Im off to Ozgtag to go burn off that gram of vegemite chocolate I consumed... No actually I'm off to oztag to work off that whole container of peanut brittle that I ate.....