The funny thing is, that Facebook is pretty much one of the biggest crock of sh%t places on this planet. There is so much LOL I LOVE MY LYF, MY HUSBAND AND I ARE SO HAPPY AND IN LURVE, BEST DAY EVA.. posts when you know that in reality, things are pretty much the exact opposite in real life. Obviously this doesn't define everyone but I seem to have a fair few people on my friends list, who i'm sure are in some type of Facebook competition to make their life sound a thousand times better than anyone else's. So the fact I'm putting so much pressure on myself to stick to my healthy eating guidelines, whilst being on holidays is kinda amazing. The reality is, for all you guys know, I could be chowing down on sticks of butter and gorging myself on chocolate (but i'm not… i promise)
Today my husband took a photo of me playing on the play equipment with the one year old. It was one of those photos that was completely random and not staged! I wasn't pulling my guts in, or turning my head on an angle so that my double chin wasn't on show, nor was I doing that fake camera smile that looks like I'm hissing an f-bomb between my lips, to take the bloody photo.
I looked at the photo after he showed it to me and I thought, wow I'm actually keeping the weight off and looking healthy… Then I thought.. "man I need to brush my hair and get a tan"
A little while ago, I posted a photo of my 5 month progress shot to a website where people were asking for weigh loss plans. I had a lot of people reply back "you were not even fat to start with" and someone wrote "I hate skinny people like you, who have to do nothing and weight just falls off" (this was in relation to me writing how limited my exercise was since doing this fructose free lifestyle.
The truth is I am not naturally skinny. My whole life I have struggled with my weight. From the moment I became self aware that I was chubby ( which was probably around 14 ) my life was one of binge eating and diet after diet and exercise kick after exercise kick. It never ever has come easy for me and the moment I would stop my diet of the month, the weight would come back on ten times quicker than it took to lose the bastard thing.
This fructose free diet has been the best lifestyle diet I have ever embarked on. I don't ever feel like I'm hungry or missing out on a single thing and the truth is I'm not missing out on anything anyway.
So today I'm posting a photo of me exactly 1 year ago and the photo that was taken today.
You see I don't have many pics of me when I've stacked on the weight, because I refuse to let people take pictures of me OR I delete them.
I'm the type of person that takes about 40 photos to get one that I look half decent in and sometimes I can't even get one that I'm happy with.
So I'm posting this picture today, to remind me where I have come from and to motivate myself to continue on this journey!!
I'm not going to end this blog with some crappy line like "nothing tastes as good as skinny feels" because I can list 10 things that I wish I was eating right now….