So this entry, although small, is dedicated to my baby girl, the sweetest thing on this planet and I assure you she is fructose free because something this beautiful, can't be bad for you.
Little Miss 2 has been the biggest hater on this sugar free journey! I assumed she would be the easiest to puersuade towards this lifestyle because she has been on this earth the least BUT apparently a two year old can't be reasoned with, the same way a 7 year old can or an adult.. A 2 year old just recognises and responds to her instinct of wanting and those instincts seem to be covered in sugar!!!
The last 10 months the 2 year old has literally thrown food back in my face, that wasn't too her liking. My fructose free substitutes were likened to dog food to her because 98 percent of food items seemed to end up in the dog dish outside the door.
Every single supermarket visit ended in her either throwing the mother of all tantys over some type of confectionary she saw OR there was that time she tried to shoplift and eat smarties and kinder surprise eggs at the register, under the ever watchful eye of her brother…
The 2 year old is known for her huge blue eyes and when she flashes those babies at you, well she seems to get what she wants. Her Pop is her number one supporter in helping her get the sweets she feels she deserves. (I love him for it because it is there special thing). She knows that when she is at Pops house, all she needs to do is point in the direction of the biscuit jar, the freezer or the cupboard and a bountiful trove of items awaits.
At our house there is nothing to point to, except fruit and that is her compromise. Having a vegan father, fruit and vegetables are her staple, whilst the sugar free mum, just sees fructose in that fruit but turns the other way to let hubby take over.
The 2 year old has made me feel like such a b**tch at times during this journey, especially when she has gone to join in the feast with other kids on playdates and old horrible mother comes along and takes away the juice or chocolates and replaces it with water and fructose free bliss balls… the tears, the sadness, the look of betrayal can really pull on the heart strings, trust me.
So to my 2 year old daughter,
Quite simply, I love you. I love you with every ounce of my being. From the moment I first saw you and held you in my arms, my love was unconditional and my heart felt complete.
You are so different to your brother. He was so placid, loving, open to everyone and yet you are so out going, such a loner and do not give out your smiles to those you don't know or trust. You are rough and feisty and will stand up for yourself but you also have the gift of being so caring and will go to other children crying and cuddle them or wipe their tears.
The last 10 months has seen you go from a lifestyle of treats and chocolates to being snuck the rare treat or two on the sly. You have fought this every step of the way and you still continue to want what you can't have.
Please know that I do this for you because I love you and I want you to have a life free from the pull of sugar laden products, free from having to spend your life worrying about your weight and hopefully I am planting the seeds for a healthy and long life.
I'm sorry for not letting you have smarties and kinder surprise eggs, I'm sorry for it being 10 months since you last had a sip of apple juice or flavoured milk. I'm sorry I make you eat my cooking, but I am getting better.
Know that you are loved and that you always will be.